I'm doomed here. Never before have a felt like such a girl - my mood truly depends on the day, its like a rollercoaster. My mom is convinced I'm "depressed" uh huh... so I have a doc appt monday... great. The only way I can sleep at night is by taking tylenol pm, which is starting not to work so my mom has some genuine sleeping pills I may try tonight. So sleep deprivation is making me extra emotional. I look at myself everyday and see how ridiculous this all is. Why can't I just adapt?? Stupid girl...

I kind of met a boy who works at this coffee shop I go to... his name is Coy. Very unique... I like unique names, since mine is so utterly unoriginal... he's majoring in religion. So it's true, this place is in the "bible belt." It doesn't terribly annoy me, I just roll my eyes. Spirituality is a personal thing I think... people around here carry their bibles around like it's going to protect them from all the evil in the world. And they seem to think publically speaking about their faith makes them a better person... ? This is all new to me... but hey, whatever floats your boat. Eh... I always hated that phrase...

So with no job and no school, I'm slowly turning into a hermit sitting at home with my dog watching TV that I'm not even paying attention to. I've decided this week I'm going to teach myself how to cook... yup... I can accomplish this in a week. <rolls eyes> At least it'll get me off the freakin couch.

I've found talking to friends from home is extremely discouraging. They talk to me of shows I am missing, things that are happening... makes me miss home and everyone so much. Even the simplist of things such as eat n park in the middle of the night, everyone spacing out watching Conan. Heh... <sigh> Oh well... I have to learn to move on eventually.

The only thing I find pleasure in is getting letters from Bobbi. Before I left we saw The Notebook together, so now she swears she will write me everyday... and so far she has. It's fun to find new things to send to her and such... and it's nice to - for the first time in my life - have a best friend. Even if we are 1500 miles away...

I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend... take care.

Nicole